"I [HATE] TO SAY I TOLD YOU SO" - The Hives

Remember, I wrote a blog a cpl days ago mentioning Drake and Jay on The Blueprint 3? Remember I said that DRAKE's career would be DEFINED by THIS SONG? Don't remember? Scroll up and read what I said. I won't even repeat that shit. Needless to say, I heard the song "Off That" produced by Timbaland [Great Beat!] and I was... left wanting. I was underwhelmed... There isn't even a DRAKE verse, only him on the hook. And I said it... I said it. I wont even repeat it... So you know... There. I'm done...

"I Think I Love Her... I Know I Love Her!" - Gucci Mane

Carmen Hayes... Ugh! She reminds me [almost] every other night why I enjoy [PORN].

"I'll Sleep When You're Dead"

This album sums up my stay in Virginia. I truly love this album. Before I moved up there, I never heard of El-P. I had heard of Def Jux [a label] but never really paid attention. It wasn't until I moved and met some cool cats who knew their shit about music [which I rarely meet] and they introduced me to El-P. "I'll Sleep When You're Dead" basically summerizes a fcked up time I had in VA when I was homeless, just wildin out, and a bunch of other shit. When I finally moved back to SC, I listened to the album again and almost broke down in tears. "Poisonville Kids/No Wins" is my favorite song on the album. "Flyentology" is a close 2nd. But "Poisonville" just really brings me back to a dark, dark time I was goin thru... I encourage all people to listen to the album... I even have one of em on my blog.

Listen and "Pay Attention"...

-Shouts out to Allen, Dave, Brittany, Sarah and Brent [BEDSAC and Co] for introducing me to some real shit. I appreciate you all for being GREAT FRIENDS... and pioneers in MUSIC.

Where The FCK Is Charles Hamilton? [Briana Latrise]

Okay, Yall know how much a dude likes [BRIANA LATRISE]. I think she's fly, outspoken and dare I say it? [REAL]? Yeah, she's that. Yall kinda know her resume': She punched Charles Hamilton [WTF is that cat? More Later....], she's Mary J's husband's kid blah, blah, blah... But she's a really cool person. Just check her blog [brianalatrise.blogspot.com] and see for ya self. But for now, check her thoughts on where is Charles Hamilton and a lot of other stuff. I think she's like the only non-celebrity in social circles who I like... DIG.
Okay, on with the show...

Oh. My. God. [HOV]!

Hits Newsstands Next Month...

"Yeah Buddy, I'm Good..."

This is The Clipse's new clothing line, "Play Cloths" and yes! I spelled that shit right! Mal and Pusha [along with designer KAWS] has put together a pretty tight ass collection. I'm loving it already! My cousin in DC already told me that they're NOT even selling it up there. But of course its in NORFOLK. Just look @ the clothes and decide for yourself.

"Who's Gonna RUN THIS TOWN Tonight?"

Looks like Jay got a solid album here. I apologize, a lot of blogsites is really on Jay's dick right now so I haven't really been speaking on BP:3 lately (But in slience... I'm patiently waiting). I'm looking forward hearing the WHOLE album, but just really hearing Jay match words and wit with dudes like Kid Cudi [Who is just DOPE to me], and of course [DRIZZY]. I feel that if DRAKE don't come hard on the song, then NO ONE is gonna buy "THANK ME LATER". I'm only kidding, but this song here is gonna let me whether or not DRAKE is as serious as alot of niggas [including me] say he is.

That is all.

"PAY ATTENTION!" [in my DJ DRAMA voice]

[HEAVEN] @ [NITE]...

My mind slips me...I wonder if I've met you in a [PAST] life.

Maybe you're what I dream about @ [NITE]

Maybe you're something that's [VANISHED] from sight...

But now that I've found you, I can't let you leave here...

You're [REAL], you've got to be...

I [CRAVE] your conversation... I [IMAGINE] your affection...

You got me [WAITING], ready in [ANTICIPATION] for your next call.

Until I finally hold you in my arms, you're not really mine.

You're a running [ILLUSION] & that's fine.

At least you're not just in my mind...Though you were run around it all the time.

I get confused with what to say.

Lose my grip? I just may.

But if I finally remember what I tried to say...

I know the girl for me is only one call away

I [DIAL]...

I press [SEND]...

I wait for an answer but...

All that's there to greet me is her... [VOICEMAIL]...

Once again, she's out of my sight...

This is my [HEAVEN] @ [NITE].

[I wrote this late one night last week...]

Bada-Ba-Ba-Ba....

Okay, so ever since I've seen this commercial I've been tryna find if theres a full version. Months past, and no cigar... So one night, me and my moms were in the kitchen making some cocoa and we were singing or humming what we thought were the lyrics to the song. I finally look again and I find the full minute version. And I LOVE IT! I've been a DWELE fan since I heard him with SLUM VILLAGE on "Tainted" [R.I.P Baatin and J DILLA] and I bought [and lost] his album "Subject" [Which is a bonafied CLASSIC joint. If you feelin' Raheem Devaughn, you'll feel DWELE]. So here it is... FOR YOU! "McCafe Mocha"!...

[808]'s & [HEARTBREAK]

A couple days ago, I was in my garage slash former apartment slash former room [for no particular reason mind you] and I found some sheets of papers I had lying around with some lyrics I had written for an album called "NRB". The thing about these particular sheets of papers is that they are completely uncomprehensible. Meaning that these sheets just have lines and lines that dont go with each other at all. They're just bars I thought up during the day or night and I'd write them down so I wouldn't forget em. I call it, [BRAINSTORMING]. Then I happened to find a song called, "In Search Of...". It was a song I was writing during the time where I was beefing with TJ, wasn't talking to CHRIS as much and me and TOYA were just going thru the motions, and pretty much was at the end of our relationship [These are just guest-imations].

But reading the song had me relive all of the things I was going thru at that time. I didn't know what was real at all. I doubted FRIENDSHIP, I lost faith in the RELATIONSHIP I was in and MUSIC in no way was helping me. All I had was my notepad and I jotted down every feeling I had. Then all of a sudden, March 1st [Easter] was a day I thought I had found LOVE. A love I had wanted for so long... I thought he had sent me LOVE in the form of SHAKIRA BALLARD. Ironically, he taught me about LOVE... and its HEARTBREAK, as I would go thru that with her. That would lead to more soul searching in my notebook. And as far as music, I didnt need to go far. Drake had every feeling I was going thru with "So Far Gone" . I said goodbye to every good thing I had, I put all my chips, I bet it all... And I lost big.

I'm not the one to label regrets... but every good thing goes away. So in a flurry of anger, I went outside, burnt a blunt I had left over... and set every last lyric of the ALBUM "NRB" on fire. I needed to do it. I needed to walk away from it all. I needed it. If not, I was gonna die. Thank you to my therapist, Trina for those long nights of me asking, "WTF is wrong with me..." Adrienne, for other reasons... A lot of people is gonna wonder what this blog was actually for... IDK...

After all, I just walked in my garage one day for no particular reason...

I think it was to put those lines I wrote so long ago... TOGETHER.

"It's Not Bout Being Afraid. Its About Being Realistic."

A smart person told me today thru text that, "When people fall in love... Its a gradual process. They meet for the first time. Exchange numbers... Go out a few times. They notice they enjoy each others complany alot so they start dating. The feelings come into play and make it exclusive. They begin to yearn for each other and realize they are falling in love. They need to be with each other, would do anything for the other and realize they are in love. Over time they spend more time with each other..." and I began to look for a .38 special to shoot myself in the head with.

While I don't neccessarily disagree with that sappy, hallmark, "The Notebook" type love, and I ask a question: What if you never had the chance to do that? What if a face to face never came into play? All you have is a phone and a computer for communication? Can't you still yearn? Can't feelings still come into play? Can't you still do anything for that person? Can't you still fall in LOVE? Now I understand, that while you may love talking to that person on the phone, you can when you meet in person... NOT click. Because to some people, Physical Interaction is key to a relationship.

But sometimes, you dont get to have physical interaction. What about people in jail? Yes, you get to see them thru a glass or screen, but do you have that same face to face? No. You have to make due with the supplies you have because if you feel a certain way thru a phone... you should have it in person. Especially if there's history... Especially where you HAVE met. Some people put too much emphasis on NOW, everybody gets to be so obsessed with time that they forget what its in front. We have to... We should cherish the moments that we have on this earth, cuz while we romanticize time so much, we fail to realize that TIME is LIMITED...

But then again... Maybe its just me.

I asked the person, "What is it that is making you afraid?" She replied, "It's Not Bout Being Afraid. Its About Being Realistic." Sometimes keeping it real goes wrong, and you miss the things we care about the most. Cause we want to be real... I'm not saying be naive, or be oblivious... I'm not saying keep it real, or a 100 [as these cool kids are saying these days]... I say be true to yourself and your feelings...Cause at the end of the day, that's all you have anyway.

But then again... Maybe its just me.

Maybe she wasn't that smart after all...

"Nigga You Gay..." -Riley Freeman

Now normally, I dont object to niggas sharing their feelings. I encourage it really. I mean, even I jot down my feelings on this blog site from time to time. But DAMN! Come on Starbury... You had it all... The Money... Money and the Cars... Cars and the Clothes... The HOES... I suppose... Damn it, if you won a ring... You might've been SUCCESSFUL. But look at you now, weekly shows on ustream, and you aint even signed to no team... And you crying and ish while yo homeboys clowning you in the background singing? Damn man... That shit is TRAGIC. To KIRK FRANKLIN no doubt! I mean, I would've put on some MARVIN SAPP... or some HEZEKIAH WALKER... maybe even some MAHALIA JACKSON! But that R.Kelly/Kirk Franklin/Bono and Mary J shit was straight up NOT GANGSTA! "That was so NOT GANGSTA!" [If I can borrow a quote from "The Boondocks"]. And the whole time I'm watchin this shit, I'm sayin... "Damn, these niggas STILL singing behind him... and he STILL CRYING!" It was so sad, it got to be funny... almost funnier than DRAKE fallin down on stage [GET WELL SOON DRIZZY!] but then, it just got to be downright frightening... When all the money goes and fans stop cheering, this is could be you... Hell, this might be SHAQ in a couple months when he retires.

It just goes to show you about being a celebrity... Like Dave Chappelle said, "One minute the crowd loves you, next minute you standing on top of a van dancing wondering 'What the FUCK happened?'"... IRONY.

I hate to say it man but...

Steph...

"Nigga you GAY."

Everything Is Under Control...

Okay, I've been talking about this album I've been working on for a while. So to put it plainly, its been a [LABOR] of love. I was working on it... Then I stopped. Wrote more songs, then [STOPPED]. I admit, I fell [OUT] of [LOVE] with music for a minute. Nothing seemed right to me. And on top of that, I was listening to Drake's [SO FAR GONE] all the time. Not to say I don't like DRAKE. I do, but it was at a point where his music was influencing mine. Like every other song that I wrote sounded like his. So I stopped listening to music for a while and watched some movies and I got completely influenced by movies like "Antwone Fisher", "Goodfellas", "Purple Rain" [Naj's Personal Fave] and oddly enuff "The Manchurian Candidate". So one night while I'm looking for my [NEWPORTS], I see the DVD cover for the movie and the tagline says, "EVERYTHING IS UNDER CONTROL." And my mind starts to work in overload and I came to the result that EVERYTHING IS UNDER CONTROL. Even when you're surrounded in CHAOS, even when things are going wrong, you have to remind yourself: EVERYTHING IS UNDER CONTROL. I must've wrote 4 songs that week afterwards.

Everything Is Under Control is an album of new and old songs I was working on. I wanted to make a point to do that so you can hear how I was feeling before and after. One thing I am learning to do is to stop critiquing myself so much. I am SUCH my own WORST CRITIC that I tend to overthink things too much and I hurt myself in the end. So I'm just letting myself go and whatever happens, happens. Let the chips fall where they may. I feel as if I'm a couple more songs away. Maybe 2 to 3.... I wanna knock them out b4 I leave for Recruit Training. I think I havent had this much fun working on something since I worked with STIX! aka BLUsteel [NOW] so shout outs go to Lil Bubba, Twix, Charleston Cord, Marc-Lo, Big Sista Mira' and everybody who has been apart of the album so far. I've couldnt have done it without you.

Alot of people have influenced this album in some shape or form, whether I've met you on the fly, talked to you on the phone, ex-girlfriends, whomever... You've all been apart of this process in some shape too. Oh yeah, shout outs to NEWPORT for those many stressful nights, and GOOD ONES too. So here's a TRACKLIST of what's on so far:

1. Is It A Dream or a Nightmare [INTRO]*
2. Everything is Under Control [Produced by TWIX]
3. Congratulations [Produced by TWIX]
4. Charleston Girls [Produced by Charles Hamilton]
5. Celebrity [Produced by TWIX]
6. Angel [American Gangster Interlude] **
7. Houstalantavegas 2.0 ** [Produced by Noah "40" Shebib]
8. Dreams & Cocaine [Interlude from BLOW]
9. Got Yola w/Lil Bubba [Produced by Lil Bubba]
10. G Niggas Ride w/Twix and Black Robb [Produced by TWIX]
11. I'm on it w/TWIX [Produced by TWIX]
12. Still Fly w/Lil Bubba [Produced by...]

*May not be on album
**Interlude may be with song

And that's it... or that's all I can remember. I should have a link for you to download soon when I'm done. Hopefully that's by the weekend!

-Naj

[NINE]/11

The Blueprint [3]...Will Hit Record Shelves. And I will be in Parris Island longing to listen to it.
Ugh...

[SKITTLES] & [PINEAPPLE JUICE]

Okay... First I gotta give props to my homie Reni [check her out @ renjones.blogspot.com] on this story, so I felt like I had to give a different perspective...

So, streets is [TALKIN]... and you know the urban legends that come with sex:

• If you drink Mountain Dew or Mello Yello, ya d*ck gets smaller because of the "yellow 5" ingredient.
• Ginseng makes you longer and bigger and last longer

And to my surprise, If you take ALTOIDS then the head is GREAT! [my homegirl told me that today]

But this comes from an interview with Trey Songz [YUUUUUP!] and Honeymag.com where he was talking bout sex and porn [I aint gon lie, I love PORN myself.]. So here's an excerpt that made me go in my WENDY WILLIAMS mode, "Fucccouttahere!"

"You know the rumor that if a girl drinks pineapple juice her sh*t tastes sweeter?Yeah I heard about that. Well you know the rumor that if a dude drinks pineapple juice (laughs)… I’m gonna tell you a funny story. I was eating skittles. One night, we went to the movies, me and my homegirl, and I was eating skittles and she (gave me head) that night, so two days later she was talking to her homegirl and she was reading that if her man eats skittles his cum tastes better. And she was tripping because I had ate skittles and she was like it tastes different. And I was like that’s some bullsh*t."
-Trey Songz

Yeah... Pineapple juice and skittles. I agree with Songz, that IS some bullshit but I give him mad props for being open in the interview. Not a lot of celebrities, much less dudes be honest with the public/media... But what do you think? Is that ish really possible? If so, I'ma have down some skittles [Red Bag] and give my girl some Pineapple Juice... EARLY!