An N Commandment P.S.A

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June 15th, 2010...

"This goes out to all my haters tryna dis/me not answering means that you don't exist/And I love to see you [FAIL], that feelings truly the [SHIT!]"

UNTHINKABLE freestyle

Okay... I hear Drizzy as he spit over this remix

Thoughts go thru my head as I wonder if she's heard this

I think about proposals on a future date

I just wanna get the words out the right way

Cause sometimes, when you rush things it comes out as a blunder

But then I get a text sayin that I'll always love ya

Why she had to add an A instead of an O.U?

Does the subtraction of two letters make it true?

I asked if she promised, she texted back "pinky"

I'm thinking we can do it, all I need is her with me

Cause honestly we done survived everything in our history

But if we can do it mentally, why not physically?

Time pass on and I ain't text back

I'm just tryin to find the words to get back on track

500 lightyears, 3 breakups and a baby later

We right back where started from, now the stakes are greater

We aint gettin younger, and we losing time and days

C'mon Najee, say what you gotta say what you gotta say!

We've had so many chances to make this chain unlink-able...

If you ready then I'm ready girl, let's do the unthinkable...

Moment of Honesty...

"Sometimes, I look for love in the wrong people, It's just always seem like the women I find are poison for me. I love women that can just walk into a room and stop the whole area. And I think that those initial qualities always end up getting me hurt, which is a crazy thing for a guy to say... Finding [LOVE] makes you extremely vulnerable. And it's actually a huge risk. I'm just hoping that men really feel where I'm coming from and they're honest with themselves. I know a lot of men feel that way..."

T.R.O.Y: Marty Jermaine Jackson...

Rest In Peace...

Say You Will

[N]

I've been avoiding this beat for about a year now...

I just figured... I had too much to say and not enough time...

I just figured I just get it out now... before it destroys me...

Where do I start?

[N]

Tears falling from my face... no green, just red eyes

Hoodie over my head, feeling like a JEDI

Thinking, "Should I burn this bitch down like Left Eye?"

Damn almost a year ago been such a change for this guy

The Marine Corps aint slow down my desire for fine hoes...

California, so I'm all around those...

But still late at night, I go to my address book and dare scroll

down a list of names, it hurts just to see these names, every night is like a wrong road...

I sit and wonder why it aint work out?

Because for months, niggas put in in my head that relationships wont work out...

So down goes Ebony, down goes Tee-Tee and damn, down goes Portia...

These girls never stood a chance, but Naj you knew it kid didnt cha?

But I'll still I tried, still I lied... and still I climbed till I fell like Frazier

My fear dealt me a death blow from the 3pt line like Fisher from the Lakers

Should've known better when I left Toya for ShaKira

That when I got to rock bottom, Karma was gonna be beside her...

For the record, I aint really mean for them to get played

And I can't take back all the decisions I've made...

But I swear I see one of they faces on any chick that I slay...

Gettin numbers like my life depends on it...

But each one looks like the same damn its so ironic

Finally reached a good point with Toya, but I don't dare call her up cause I'll say the wrong thing like...

"I love you... I really wish you'd come back..."

But deep down, I know we can never go back...

Tried fixing things with Ebony, it aint that she the one for me...

I just live a calm life, and her in it makes it crazy

Found the marriage license for me and Portia...

Damn sometimes I wish she was here in California...

Maybe it could work out, this could be something...

But all I hear her sayin is that I need help... I need nothing.

I'm not the Naj from a couple years ago... and I've probably changed from a week ago.

So to have known me means theres a NEW me...

And I don't got a problem wit evolving evidentially...

I'm just scared that eventually you'll forget me and put me on a shelf and not remember me and heart is labeled John Doe

Damn, how long this really gonna go?

And really I just wish I can take you from where you are, and put you in these size tens

and let you walk a couple miles...

Then maybe you can see my scowl underneath the smile...

And know I'm still the same 6 yr old child

Who lost his father to blow, who felt he had nowhere to go...

So turned to a notepad and got internal...

its funny that a laptop can know my secrets but I neet a girl and I get scared if she gon' leak it.

It's not me hiding shit from you, its that I'm a bit paranoid...

I'm scared you wont understand this little boy...

And I dont mean to sound selfish... but to these words and my thoughts... I am not selfless.

I feel like a crab in a bucket, tryna make it top but I'm surrounded by shellfish...

And that aint make sense so forget it...

but dont forget me... i dont wanna sound prophetic...

So fuck a girlfriend man, fuck a H.E.R...

I don't want a soulmate... I want a BELIEVER...

So if you can make a deal... best believe you can break a deal...

I'm just saying, dont say you wont judge me if you know you will...

But I'm just scared... and you was impatient...

I'm sorry that I left you hangin and I left you waiting...

I decided to let you know how I feel...

But honestly if you knew all of this before, would you and I be together still?

Don't say you will...