21 Years Later... And [STILL] Funky Enough...

This song here made me realize [RAP] was [REAL]... Before Ice Cube dropped his solo shit, The D.O.C was the one ripping it. Dre and Eazy looked like geniuses. Then tragedy struck and The D.O.C lost his voice, left LA and moved to TX and had a baby with who eventually had ANOTHER baby with one of my favorite LYRICISTS. We know her as Erykah Badu. Nevertheless, when I want to listen to REAL HIP-HOP... Before I put on "Food and Liquor" and way before I dig in and play "Reasonable Doubt"... I play this song. Why? Cause Dre said "Its Funky Enough"...

Enjoy.

...An [ODE] to [MONROE]...

"We got [WIFEY], we [ALL] want a [MONROE] though..."

Ode To Monroe by Taylor_GANG

...[HOLD] Up...

Don't get it twisted... I love ART. And I LOVE Photography. Kanye was talking about Helmut Newton's photography in a interview and twitter once. So I did my research and fell in love with his work. If he was alive, I'd want him to do the photography for my album. But I'll settle for David LaChappelle and/or Anthony Mandler...

Anywayz... Peep the new joint... "Hold Up" feat. Young Kevin Johnson

[Another J.Cole beat held hostage by me.]

Oh and why I posted this picture? Cause this picture describes the song in a way. And its my fcking blog. I does what I want.

Hold Up by Taylor_GANG

...Runaway [In & Out]...

Runaway [In And Out] by Taylor_GANG

Let's [HAVE] a [TOAST]... Kanye with a [NYCE] spin to it...

930pm In Oceanside...[AUDIO]

930pm In Oceanside by Taylor_GANG

This is how it came out...

[LYRICS] 930pm in Oceanside...

This is the part where I fall right?

Where I fail and crawl away from sight?

Where I break down and prove all the hatas right

Well I'm sorry, losing just don't fit my type

So yall just gonna have to hear me out tonite

At my staged funeral wearing all white

Excuse my smile, but ya faces is a funny sight

Where I been? I been writing down all of my feelings

Whatever those feelings is, is clearly appealing

Can you feel the heat rise? The tension building?

Spirit of Marvin Gaye giving some type of healing

Look at the man in the mirror, the image is revealing

I cant help but smile and say Damn I'm brilliant...

Go ahead and ask about the Marines, you know they pay

I just spent over 350 dollars in less than thirty days

Damn, I guess it costs just to be a boss

But Naeshawn is good so it aint a loss

So son, I'm just out here providing for ya

Even though ya moms say different, she just hatin cuz!

Ya... My pain is the beat for the mean lyrics

Camels and Newports provides the room an incense

When I make it, I politely ask all not to ask for a cent

That's just the Dos Equis talking, its got a nigga bent

Relationships in minuses and I cant tell whats up

[You gon mention Portia's name?] Here's a minor plug...

Hello dear, can you hear me clear?

Do you got me turned up, is Brian standing near?

Step away from ya True Blood and the Crown in ya cup

I just really wanna say I wish yall the best of luck

The redskins are doin good and the eagles are steppin up...

How do I know you rep them teams is really crazy as fuck

I swear... AH! Before I really start to lose focus...

New guy, I need you to really take notice...

I hope you enjoy the seat that I gave up

Wit yo lame ass profile pic seems like a setup

IDK why PNJ aint tell you its the most ridiculous getup

Everybody is listenin thinkin Naj got better

I'll just end it right there fore' I get a nasty letter

Yeah, I told em all I'll win in overtime...

Bittersweet taste of revenge is how I get mines

Damn... How can I stay so hood?

Lemme take it back to smoking good out in Hardwood

Girls falling thru the crib with the chest bustin out

Now I'm surrounded by girls mom warned me about

Writing a new mixtape, now things gotta click

How do I improve from the first and make a hit

Considering this breakup had a nigga pissed

Do I continue with the story if as if she doesnt exists?

So do it Naj, do it... Go ahead and let it rip

And if they ask for a split, dont give em shit

I swear rolling with the US, I got a real team

Steppin up in the pocket, call me Willie Beamen

Touchdown for Dynamik, Nyce is at the forefront

Say I'm wack, my reply is do you really need to stunt?

Let me go back to the old me...

Cause this dude is somebody you dont wanna see

Am I spazzin out? I say hell yeah probably...

Is this what yall want? Done took Drake's Chris Tucker impression

Fck the questions... Im done with suggestions...

Fall back, you trippin easily...

Middle fingers up at all who oppose me...

So when you fall, I hope you land on both knees...

Cant yall see? I'm so N-Y-C-E

Nigga yeah...

Is this what yall want?

Really? This is what yall want?

Fck it then...

Here you go...

[Written two weeks ago... I recorded that same night... IDK if I'll release it... Its just an example of where I was at...]

This is [GENIUS]....

...Kanye's [BANNED] album cover for "Dark Twisted Fantasy"...

...[DARK], [TWISTED] Fantasy...

I write this a bit inspired from Kanye West XXL article. I've rarely blogged and I apologize for that. A lot of things haven't made me want to talk to 5 of you who probably take time out to read this. But, all in all... I just been a bit... busy. Busy doing nothing. So I begin by asking you, "What is the definition of classic?" Jay-Z made "Reasonable Doubt"... Biggie made "Ready to Die". They did that cause they could. It was a time where they could be honest. Think about the hottest dude out there right now. Could Drake make "Reasonable Doubt"? Could Wayne make "Ready to Die"? FUCK NO. A lot of em are too worried about swag and fanciness and not being a human being... Ironically, they got that whole swag and fancy thing from Hova. Have I been concerned with making a classic? Yes. Did I think I made a classic with "Believe in Make Believe"? No. Honestly... I didn't. Most of the songs on there were songs I felt I could do better or songs I thought Portia would like. Some songs were actually from the heart. Maybe, I wasnt thinking at all.

I've been dealing with the "BIMB" thing and the Portia fall out for a while now. They came hand in hand. I was on top of the world, and it came crashing down. All in a couple days of its release. I didnt know what to do after me and Portia broke up. I was still dealing with the reaction from the mixtape. People wanted more... But I couldn't write. I wasn't the same person that wrote "BIMB"... So I couldnt be in that space to do "N Plane Sight" justice. I was just plain angry... I was listening to early T.I. and Rick Ross new album and a lot of other songs... It just ended up being an angry pre-write. [Definition: I write songs before I record... So I pick and choose after I'm done.] It was basically my version of "The Marshall Mathers LP". But what I liked the most about it was its honesty. I told the truth but that doesn't mean its okay to express those feelings. A lot of songs were aimed at Portia. I was beefing... HARD. And she of all people knows, I'm dangerous with words. I would've hurt her to no end. And at that time, I didn't care.

I wasnt expecting the reaction from that mixtape, that's why writing for "N Plane Sight" was equally harder on me. How can I expand on that... "BIMB" was talking about making it... the journey to success, to dreams. "N Plane Sight" was about realizing it... I felt that I didnt realize it yet. I felt lost... I talked to "Catherine" plenty of times thru text talking to her about my music and writers block... She told me to take my time. Experience life some more. But what was left to experience? Heartache? Sadness? Regret? Anger? I did that. I realized I possibly could've thrown a molotov cocktail at my own career before it started. I wasnt in a great spot to write... So I secluded myself. I stopped listening to my favorites and found new ones. "Pilot Talk" by Curren$y really peaked my interest again... and Kanye's reemergence with "G.O.O.D Fridays" actually saved me. Listening to Pusha T and his braggadocio coke raps, Big Sean...Wiz Khalifa... These people shaped a new love... gave me hope. I went back to SC and started to forget about Portia. I forgot the pad and pen. I started writing in my blackberry. I found more people who rapped and formed a group. I started building... finding other avenues of creativity.

Basically I forgot about the bullshit. And thats what I did. I spent from July to now improving on my craft. Improving every element of myself as a person and a rapper. Honestly, I'm writing way better now. Because now, its not about coming up with lines. I'm comfortable with just doing it and making it rhyme. I've done some recording just to see where I am... And I may release it. IDK yet... A lot of songs still detail me and Portia's breakup... But its okay. I'm man enough to make songs about being jealous and me poking fun at her new guy. I still have a lot of pain. and I needed to write it out. So I did. I feel that now... towards the end, is when the real DYNAMIK/NYCE music is really coming to fruition... Coming to the forefront... I'll never write 'Far from Gone' again... I'll most definitely never write 'Portia James Music' again. But hey, I said that about "Everything's Right"... LOL.

But really, I had ego on the first album. I really had an ego and when me and Portia broke up, my ego was crushed. I'm still trying to flip that into a sense of humor. I also realized that, I'm not DRAKE, I'm not JAY-Z, I'm not KANYE WEST. I have to be DYNAMIK. And that was extremely liberating... Kanye says "You can have genius moments. But you can lose the genius too." I lost the genius for a minute. I had to get that back. I feel that this journey is a fantasy... I couldnt believe what I had to go thru to get to this point. I totally scrapped "N Plane Sight"... I decided that yesterday... I'm another tip right now. Like I started listening to Sade and J.Cole a lil bit and Scarface's "The Fix" [WHICH IS A HEAVY FUCKING ALBUM] and I'm kinda getting that itch... I'm excited again... I'm on another plane... "Life at 20,000 ft"... That's the tentative album name... But you know... I'm ever changing. Each day, I change a lil... I get inspired by something everyday... I've had more conversations, drank more alcohol, had more sleepless nights. But its all good. Everything is right in this dark, twisted fantasy of mine.