The Fear

This has been something in the making for a long time.

I've always said I was gonna do this.

It has always been my intention on doing this.

I just hadn't found the time. Nor felt the circumstances to be right...

But I've decided to do it NOW.

I'll tell you this. Starting your own mixtape is a VERY challenging thing. You set up beats, but you dont want the WHOLE thing to be beats from songs that everyone has heard. You go through the whole "writing before/writing during" process. You choose your best songs to record while allowing yourself to be spontaneous and make songs "on the fly". Then its recording. Cause you dont wanna do it grassroots in ya homeboy's closet. or "Hustle and Flow" style in ya moms basement or garage. But if the sound quality is there, and you got to the tools... I say go for it.

Through all these hurdles, I managed to decide to do it. But it wasn't until hearing Drake's "SO FAR GONE" that I completely went over the edge. I admit, I was waiting for something to inspire me, 808's and Heartbreak got me close...but not enough. "Comeback Season" got me closer... But it was "SO FAR GONE" that did it... I remember the moment: Late at night, listening to "Say Whats Real" and the line of, "My next girl standing by my EX girl, standing by the NEXT girl I'm fucking right now..." That sealed it. I immediately turned off the radio and started writing. I had been writing casually earlier, but now I was in a inspired rage. After I found my beats, called my boy Mike who usually makes beats for me... I linked up with another producer TWIX. And now you pretty much have the outline for your mixtape. I decided to call it, "N PLAIN SIGHT".

I named it that because a lot of things that we dont realize or really recognize is right in front of us namely, in plain sight. Whether its the right choice, right career, right location, the "one"... these things can all be in plain sight. Deep huh? This mixtape is like a diary of sorts, a chronicle of events that has happened in the past or at that moment.Cause there's alot I'll get off my chest. I just wanted to blog and tell you guys my plans, and as a show of good faith... I'll type out my TRACK LIST [LATER] to prove I'm not bs'in you...

So wish me luck...

Album I Have To Buy...ASAP

Lily Allen's "It's Not Me, It's You"... "The Fear" is lyke my undercover favorite song right now... Not to mention I have the HUGEST CRUSH on Lily as well...

Ugh.

Buy It.

Digital Girl of The Week [It's A *GASPS* Tie!]: Megan Fox & Olga Kurylenko

Okay... So I figured I haven't blogged in a minute, so if I was gonna do it I was gonna do it rather big. If you've been under a rock and haven't seen movies like HITMAN or QUANTUM OF SOLACE or most recently... MAX PAYNE [alot of people didn't], then you've seen Olga Kurylenko [Who is ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!] There's other pics I could post, but I don't wanna risk another "backlash" like I got for the Aubrey O'day post [LOL]. Megan Fox though, of TRANSFORMERS fame, is so HOT its not even funny. But the fact that she has an INSANE sense of humor gives her more points on my scale of hotness. So feel free to look, deposit it in your "spank bank" [as my BEST FRIEND Ross would say] and comment. Oh yeah, HOLLA AT ME on TWITTER. I need followers... LOL

Drake: Leaders Of The New School Cover 2010?

So I was TWITTER-ing today and I saw Clover Hope's [An editor for XXL] page and me and her had a conversation... And Drake's name came up... Here's an excerpt:

listening to Drake per everyone's recommendation. so far, so emo. nice. about 18 hours ago from TwitterFox

@clovito You really think Drake is EMO? about 1 hour ago from web in reply to clovito

clovito @NB_Confidential yeah, judging from his beat choice and content. really sentimental. Some of his mixtape is very 808s & Heartbreak-esque about 1 hour ago from TwitterFox in reply to NB_Confidential

NB_Confidential @clovito I hear you on that, but I definitely feel that he has something to offer though. "Successful" is a great track minus weezy. about 1 hour ago from web in reply to clovito

clovito @NB_Confidential yep! him, b.o.b. and nipsey hussle give me hope for the future


NB_Confidential @clovito Okay, so you think Drake is good... Do you think he'll make a XXL cover? Or at least make next yrs "Leaders Of The New School"? 13 minutes ago from web in reply to clovito

clovito @NB_Confidential he has potential for the new school cover depending on when his album drops. I'm sure it'll get pushed back a few times lol 6 minutes ago from web in reply to NB_Confidential

I'm wearing her down... SLOWLY...

NAJ-STALGIA: A Love Letter To Hip-Hop...[Written In O7]

Damn... Sometimes it hurts so much to have so much in your head and there's no one to listen. Especially at a time like 3,4 in the am. It just gets so depressing to have all these thoughts in your head and theres no one to listen, no one to vent to. You're just surrounded by places you'll never go, things you'll never have and people you'll never meet. Its so maddening because I have so much to say and no one to listen...It makes me feel crazy, but I know that I'm not...Watching movies like: "Brown Sugar" and "Krush Groove" and "Fade To Black", really showed me how much I love this industry, this movement we call Hip-Hop. I love everything it stands for. In a world where everybody is in tuned to their own feelings, hip-hop made me feel accepted, made me feel like I had a voice...I love hip-hop for making me feel free, free to think what I wanted, free to be...ME!

Listening to Common, Mos Def and Talib Kweli showed me the real. Showed me there was still substance in a world that is so obsessed with "Bling Bling", "Throwin Dees on that bitch", as well as being shot 5 to 9 times. Do you remember where you were or how you felt when you first heard The Roots "Things Fall Apart"? Do you remember your first thought when you popped in Outkast's "Aquemini" and heard classics like: "Aquemini", "Return of the G", "Da Art of Storytellin pt.1 and 2"? What about Jay's "Reasonable Doubt"? Songs like "D'Evils" and "Can I Live", not just the radio cuts...But raw, classic cuts. It's a shame that we're not recognizing the realness in today's hip-hop. We tend to sidestep thought provoking MC's like: Dead Prez, Little Brother, Ghostface Killah, Madlib, while at the same time embrace Yung Joc. How did we brush off albums like Mos's "The New Danger" or "True Magic and disavow all knowledge of The Roots "The Tipping Point" and "Game Theory" while we big up undeserving artists? Now, I fall victim to it too! Listening to Lil' Boosie when I know I don't get into him. The word "lyricist" has become a dirty word in hip-hop. Now we praise punchlines and diss tracks. What happened to artists integrity? Have they forgotten all they know? Has getting shot, selling dope and getting brain and buying ice all we're accustomed to? How can Common get a XXL and barely go platinum? How did Little Brother and Lupe Fiasco be anticipated albums in 05 and 06 respectively and barely sell 300,000 units? Now we can blame bootlegging and downloading, but maybe we let BET determine our album sales. Whoever has the biggest car or baddest video girl with the biggest ass have got us shook!

Nas said that "Hip Hop is Dead", and while it may not be...we're hanging on by a slow pulse. And if we continue to go on this path where image sells then we might as well pull the plug. Have we forgotten what got us to fall in love with hip-hop in the first place? Just hearing a simple crowd call and response? Have we done this to ourselves? While this may sound like a tireless rant, or somebody drowning in nostalgia, I only say this so our hip-hop artists see that people still care...I know we cant go back but we have to evolve. As artists, writers, lyricists, performers, we have to give the people something. I think we owe it to ourselves. We've become so worried about the check that labels are taking out of album sales anyway that some has forgotten about the fans...We've become to stagnant...too complacent in Rap. Michael Jordan didn't stop after that 1st ring so why should we? Hip-Hop is a force that cannot be stopped, but we can stop ourselves. As an avid reader of XXL and VIBE, I hope they put other artists like Little Brother, Mos Def and Talib or others on the cover. I know you're trying to sell, but we can do better! I believe we can do it. I can only dream a dream...Like Common said, "We on our Jeffersons yall/ but we forgot the theme".

In closing... I could never think Hip-Hop is dead because its alive in me and somewhere deep inside, behind that jesus piece... Its still in you....

Is This The "Answer"?

So I guess A.I had to do something to get Detroit inspired after a 27-24 record at the All-Star Break...


But cut his hair? Hmmm... IDK, but this has got to be the most newsworthy second to SHAQ's Jabberwockee Dance Moves...

But lets look at A.I when he first had a haircut...

Okay... Not Bad. So A.I now?

Okay... Still The Same... But still though, Was it "The Answer"?

Revenge Is Coming...

5.26.09...

Nuff' Said...